I keep finding things Rachel sent me over the years, like Mix CDs and cookie tins and Hallowe'en stuff. I thought of her when I was in London last year during the Kate concert, but it didn't feel all that regretful or mawkish. It was more like, "I'll bet she would have liked this, this, and this!"
But I never know for sure because she's not here now. Miss you so much, Rach.