Depression/Anxiety

[emanate]

After some time, I told her that I don't feel understood by her - an old issue between us.
Then she accused me of not telling her before, demanding examples.
Under tears, I did give her some current ones - she said, she never said these things, I misunderstood, misinterpreted etc. that it wasn't true.
That she always has best intentions and I take everything she says too literally etc.

That sounds like classic gaslighting behavior on your mother's part. You do not deserve to be treated that way, and you made a good decision to leave the situation when you did. I hope you can find some comfort in days to come in knowing that you did what you could to take care of yourself by leaving and refusing to listen to any more of that treatment from your mother.

[grapefruit_is_winning]

Ughhhhhh clothes shopping after gaining a ton of weight over the course of a couple incredibly stressful work years. Between the weight gain, the clothes shopping experience, and the imminent return to work following a holiday break (back on an airplane Tuesday morning), I'm like, kill me please.

Just venting here. I guess I'm just feeling overwhelmed by my problems, or more accurately by my apparent inability to solve them. I feel so frustrated with, ashamed by, and disappointed in myself. Please please please let 2018 be a much better year than 2017.

[BrotherNamedErised]

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[CC]

After a very distressing fight with my mother around christmas (and some very helpful comments on my "misery post" here thank you!),
I started looking for some self-help books and I thought some of them might be interesting to people here as well.

My mother's behaviour had some aspects of a narcisstic parent, yet all the material I found on that did not reflect my experience very well.
I found the concept of "immature parents" much more suitable for my situation. It is more about emotionally self-absorbed people in general.
Their behaviour is not toxic in the same way as of a fully evolved narcissist, I would say.

Lindsay C. Gibson: Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents: How to Heal from Distant, Rejecting, or Self-Involved Parents.
I was shocked to find my life experiences described in there - it was a relief as well. It helps to understand more, how an emotional
immature person functions and how you can get to manage the situation as an adult.

In addition to this, I found this one
Susan Forward: Mothers who cant love to be even more helpful concerning exercises.
It is focused on mother-daughter-relationships, though.
It depicts 5 types of mothers (narcisstic, enmeshed, controlling, neglecting and in need of mothering),
so it is a bit more differentiated than the Gibson book.

[entropy]

Lindsay C. Gibson: Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents: How to Heal from Distant, Rejecting, or Self-Involved Parents.
I was shocked to find my life experiences described in there - it was a relief as well. It helps to understand more, how an emotional
immature person functions and how you can get to manage the situation as an adult.
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I got this book about six months ago! It's been extremely helpful!!!

[BrotherNamedErised]

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[CC]

I am so sorry that you are struggeling like this!
It is so difficult to be patient in phases like these.

Someone else wrote this on another forum: My heart is a renewable raw material.
I hope your shattered heart will grow back to its full bloom soon!

[JayPeaches]

Has anyone successfully weaned off of Effexor XR? I have an appointment with my doctor to get started on a tapering plan, but wanted to know if anyone here has been through it. I’m a little scared. Or maybe a lot scared.

THe reason I want to get off of it is because of the extreme fatigue. It’s just too much. I want to sleep alllllllllll the time and I have zero motivation or energy.

[Naid]

Has anyone successfully weaned off of Effexor XR? I have an appointment with my doctor to get started on a tapering plan, but wanted to know if anyone here has been through it. I’m a little scared. Or maybe a lot scared.

THe reason I want to get off of it is because of the extreme fatigue. It’s just too much. I want to sleep alllllllllll the time and I have zero motivation or energy.

Hi JayPeaches, I'm not familiar with Effexor XR but I successfully weaned off an SSRI, plus anti-psychotic medication. I did a quick google search and it sounds like the withdrawal symptoms can be similar.

Fatigue was a real problem for me with the ssri medication - the exhaustion was devastating, it was so hard to move and I felt like my brain was foggy all the time. I had serious memory problems, struggled to think straight etc. Since coming off the medication, all of that has slowly righted itself. As the medication left my system I felt like I was 'waking up'. It took a long, long time before it felt like my brain was working properly again but it's been 3 years now and I'm definitely feeling better. I still have some rough days, but they're easier than they were (if that makes sense?)

I can understand feeling worried about coming off the medication, I was terrified and I'm not going to lie to you, I found it tough. Definitely taper, try not to rush and try to stay focused on the end goal of being free of the side effects. Take good care of yourself.

I know the medications I was on are a little different but I'm here if you have any questions, I'm happy to try to help if I can